Good For Nothing
Except for maybe sex.
I’m starting to think that I have a sign on my forehead that says “Only good for sex”. I have been re evaluating my life & the men in it & man. Everybody around me is in a relationship, getting married, and living their best lives but what about me. Why is it so hard for me to find myself in a relationship. I was recently told by my constant after 3 years that it was still just sex and when I tell you a bitch is perplexed. After the occasional ” I love You” and the matching tattoo ideas, and all the side shit I did for him this negro still told me it was just sex. I appreciate his honesty, but damn. I look back over the last 7 years of my relationshits trying to see what I did wrong, and once again a bitch is perplexed. I did everything for them ie: cooked, took niggas on trips, bday gifts/ surprises even gave one money when times got tough & yet it still wasn’t good enough. I got nothing in return except good dick & insecurity. Like damn I couldn’t even get a bday card. Before you throw judgement, these men I did shit for weren’t niggas off the street and I didn’t do things for everybody. I know you are saying why would you do anything for these men especially when they aren’t your husband. So yes I’ll take the blame but it still leaves the million dollar question why wasn’t it enough? Yesterday I was reading my book & the writer said:
“There’s nothing more confusing & painful to a woman than being told she’s amazing by a man who treats her like she’s not good enough to commit to and the saddest part of it all is that this woman will fight to prove her value to the one man who doesn’t even deserve her.”
& then I realized oh shit maybe it’s not just me. Niggas really do this foolery to other women on the daily. I think I’ve learned my lesson tho. Keep your heart & your wallet 3 $tacks.